My Mind Rejected My Own Mind

Recently I think that I turned out good as well. For being not surrender for living in this body.

I’ve bullied since elementary school. That is why I got the introvert side.

I have difficulty to trust other people.

I like to have friends, but making sure that my closest friend circle as little as possible.

What is my greatest fear? rejection. Writing that word already making me cringe.

I hate rejected by people. So all this time, I really try to not begging for something from someone else.

What if they reject my request? this is always stuck in my head.

I just running my job until I cannot breathe then hoping somebody else will see me so they will offering help.

It’s not right, I can feel it. But I’m scare.

What should I do to get rid this mindset from my brain..